I really want to do more crafts-things.

I wish I was still living at home, so I could have free range with my mum's sewing machine and all the fabrics she's just collected through the years. Not to mention her knowledge in how to do such things. I was never really interested in sewing when I was little but now that I'm getting old, DIY things are more and more and more appealing, simply so I can work with my hands and make something.

I do have my scrapbook and its materials here in my apartment now. I've only got one event I could do a page on, at this point. My social life and picture-taking have gone downhill with the dissolving of my sorority, my good camera quitting and my getting an apartment and spending all of my time with my cats.

I should take some photos of my apartment, maybe, but it's so unfinished. No furniture, really. Not very much decoration. I only just got curtains. Maybe this is why I'm so into DIY- maybe someday I'll find a bargain couch or chair or something and make it look pretty again. It'd be so nice to have a couch. C'est la vie.

I'm trying to be positive lately. I don't know if it's working, but I'm trying, and that's what counts. Painting, drawing - it helps.

Things I am coming to like about myself.

1. Despite my average GPA, I am actually very intelligent.
2. I work very hard at nearly everything I endeavor to do, barring it being entirely hopeless like doing my nails without smudging them within 30 minutes (happens every time).
3. Occasionally, I am hilarious. It's a bit hit-or-miss, but if it works sometimes then that is enough.
4. I tend to be very random in my wardrobe, loving all manners of different styles, colors and items. This tends to make me anywhere from jeans, a t-shirt and a cardigan, to a dress with over-the-knee socks and boots. I love it.
5. I'm just feminine enough to pull off a pixie without entirely looking like a boy, but masculine enough to still be slightly androgynous.
6. I really like my smile.
7. My eyes are tea mixed with honey.
8. I am in touch with my emotions. Sometimes mostly my negative ones, but it's a start.
9. I'm quick to laugh and to compliment others. I like making other people feel good.
10. I have a cute butt.
11. I can, and will, do anything I put my mind to. I am very determined (and stubborn).
12. I don't take my random daydreams too seriously.
13. I love. Other people. Nature. Scrapbooking. My boyfriend/fiancee/whatever it is he is. And, for once in my life, I think I love myself too.

I'm a college student, still trying desperately to figure myself out before I graduate in May 2013. I have figured out only the bad traits: That I am cynical, pessimistic, too skinny and very dense. I am trying to figure out the good. Come along for the ride.

Who knew 13-year-old me's fears and insecurities would carry to 20-year-old me.